"I wear this on my sleeve," -MCR

Last day of September today, and I just realised. And there I was thinking we were still sometime in the middle of September, but apparently not.

Week 3 is over, and it was over so fast yet so gruelling.

It's also the last day of school lessons for the Year 6s today, which means yet another batch is graduating; bringing us closer and closer to our graduation, in turn. The prospect of being out of school and into university life just scares the hell out of me. I'm growing old and what if I can't accomplish what I want to accomplish in the short time I'm given here? Oh no.

And when I recall when we talked about not leaving this place soon enough, I really want to go back in time and tell myself to pull myself together and simply savour everything and go along for the ride.

Okay, so, yeah.

Rained superbly in the morning, so went to school contented and feeling great. Also, it was a Friday, and Fridays are good days because there's no school the next day and we get to sleep in.

Talked about AC and DC circuits during Physics, which makes me wonder why I really never bothered to look up how these things work. I mean, we see them everywhere, and electronic devices and appliances basically rule my life, so why am I not the least curious about them? Maybe it's because they're everywhere, they've become un-fascinating. That's kind of sad. These things need to be appreciated more, I think.

And I'm simply shallow.

Two of the remaining groups finally presented during English (my group presented a week and a half ago), and I have to say, the guys really impressed me with their 'love and marriage' presentation. Yes, it's true that pop culture destroys the meaning of traditional marriage, but true love can never be destroyed. I love it how the guys seem to be more clear about these kinds things than girls are. What can we say? We're erratic.

Also, got marks back for summative compre and essay. Compre was great, essay was better than last time (and last time was a C+, which was depressing beyond words).

Made tonnes of LotR references during Econs with Clarice and Verena, 'cause we had to do this discussion and presentation about the trade of certain countries, and we chose New Zealand. Awesome fun.

Almost managed to finish off our notes during Chem, but we've got one page left before we're done with this sem's module completely. I like Chem.

Edited stuff during CCA. I want to remain president, because I feel as if I need to make up for this horrible year of non-leadership. I believe in me.

Then had dinner out with Wee Thean, Kelvin and Lee Ji-Hyun while we discussed our Econs project. Yeah, busy day.

Okay, going off now. Need to watch the latest episode of Glee.

Night.

P.S. And, if anyone wants to stalk me further, here's a Tumblr account.

P.P.S. The rest of 05 gets to go for the Geog field trip tomorrow with the 04 and 02 Geog students, while Daryl, Zhi Yao, Ryan and I are able to spend our time doing other things tomorrow morning. Whee.

Guppy report.

Sometimes, I feel like I need to assert my girl-ness, so I'll post a link to this insanely hot GIF. It's a matter of taste, really, but I know thousands of other people around the world think Adrien Brody is great, so it's no matter if you think he looks terrible. It's fine.

Slept quite late this morning, rushing a Geog poster-presentation thing that we only have to present next week due to certain reasons I can't recall so will not disclose. Partly why I don't want to remember is because I probably wasted my night. But no regrets, oh no.

Forward and onwards, mateys.

Played random games during PE, because it was peer teaching.

Then finally had our Malay debate, after weeks and weeks of dragging and postponing and changing dates and topics. I must say it's like a great weight has been lifted off our shoulders, because it's something that's been pending for such a long time, and now that it's gone it feels good. I can not speak fluently in Malay, which is quite a shame, considering it's been part of my life for many, many years now.

Talked more about proving in Math. It's sort of magical, really.

Did more inheritance stuff during Cell Bio, which reminds me, 'Inheritance' is coming out on my mum's birthday, which is in a month and a half. Oh I'm so excited, but then I'd have to re-read the previous three books first because I have obsessive issues so I'd have to wait until I got back home.

Dinner was surprising, because it was surprisingly good. Like, puffy, crispy prata with curry sauce. Felt good not having to eat rice for hostel dinner for a change. And the look on Adithya's face when he realised what we non-Indian-vegetarian people had was just priceless. Poor guy gets pretty much the same thing every single day, and they won't let him switch to regular food (because he's not vegetarian at all).

Okay, more stuff to do.

Guppy report awaits.

P.S. It's super humid tonight and I don't like one bit of it.

Entropy.

As good as rainymood.com is at helping one pretend it's raining, it isn't as good as real rainfall, which is why it feels amazing right now because it actually is raining.

It seems like I talk about the weather all the time here, but I honestly can't help it. I love almost everything about rainy weather. The darkness, the pitter-patter of raindrops, the occasional assuring thunder and lightning, the cold, the way the wind blows and kisses your face with a slight hint of wet, the smells, the sounds of cars driving through water and making little splashing noises. Is that selfish? I know a lot of damage can be caused by storms and relentless rainfall and stuff like that, and even so I still seem to love it to bits.

But you can't always see the bad side of things, can you?

Okay, printing my Math journal now, because Joo Kee just tweeted about having not finished his and I almost totally forgot about it. That's what I love about the Internet and social networking, even though it's a huge waste of time and causes us to procrastinate so much. I enjoy feeling connected.

Had Malay first thing in the morning today, and I'm pretty sure I'm not going to fare very well for this test either. This is it, I'm going to fail my O-level paper and end up having to take Malay until I graduate at this rate. Better start crackin'.

Had Math afterwards, where Mr Chia gave us sound advice on choosing our honours and majors for next year. Everyone obviously wants to choose the subjects they like most, and yet not want to die of work overload. It's a hard balance to find. Then he told us stuff about our future Math modules, which pretty much scared off or tightened the resolve of Math-honour-takers.

Statements is an interesting topic because it's been mostly words, so far. Converse inverse contrapositive maybe yes no perhaps just kidding. It sure doesn't feel like Math.

Finally started on our last topic of the year for Chem, but then got reminded of how much we didn't like entropy. Oh, entropy. Entropy of the system, of its surroundings, of the universe. Time going forwards and entropy increasing until equilibrium and so on. Deep stuff, man. Existence is a scary thing.

Need to get started on our Econs project. So far we've only distributed roles. It's hard 'cause we aren't in the same class and have other things to think about.

Okay, going off now.

Night.

P.S. Need to brush up on my pool skills.

P.P.S. You know the awesomer half of the year has arrived when it starts raining a lot more frequently.

Discrimination.

I would like to start off this post with a little heart-to-heart about subject specialisation. It may be a bit vulgar so I suggest turning away for a moment.

Dear people who think not dropping Bio is stupid,

You are not better than us. Just because you guys have a flair for calculations and logical thinking and hate learning about "stupid, useless, irrelevant things" does not mean everyone else does too. Just because you belittle Bio does not mean you should belittle the people who enjoy it. Just because you think your life would be better without this subject doesn't mean the lives of people who take Bio suck. No, don't make assumptions.

Also, just because people who like Bio tend to want to drop Physics, you think you have the right to insult us, to tell us we've made unintelligent, irrational decisions because we're dumb enough to enjoy "mindless memorising" and not appreciate Physics. Why haven't you considered that interests can be different? Maybe we're as uncomfortable with calculations and diagrams as you are with terms and explanations. Have you ever stopped to consider that? Don't we have equal opportunities to indulge in the subjects we like most?

Just because you're geniuses with Math and Physics and are honouring everything sans Bio, it does not give you the right to call us stupid. You are not special. It does not make you smarter than us. It's called discrimination, so go f*ck off and leave us alone. We're not losers, so stop thinking you're better than us.

I hate your mentality.

Sincerely,

Someone who's not dropping Bio.

Okay yeah, now that's over with.

Math test was okay and passable, got let off early during Physics, and played with guppies during Evo Bio. I love Bio.

Also, pretty doomed because I have a Math ass due tomorrow and I realise I'm stuck.

Night.

P.S. But feeling accomplished because I finished a Physics ass. It's times like these when I feel like I want to drop Physics the most, but I'm not, so should get rid of these feelings.

P.P.S. Sudden storm ftw.

Singapore 2011.

In all my almost eighteen years, why have I never thought of the possibility of elven mermaids before? I have been missing out on a lot.

Going to type this post in two minutes with the sound of Rick Astley belting out 'Never Gonna Give You Up' in the background, 'cause he performed yesterday over the course of Singapore's F1 event and someone uploaded it onto YouTube.

Yeah, all the hype about F1 is going to end very, very soon. Also, I just received a tweet about Linkin Park recently bringing the house down during the post-race performance. Great, simply great. Absolutely brilliant. It's bad enough that I'm stressed as hell and have a Math test tomorrow and I'm worried about being careless and losing marks without knowing I've missed out on yet another F1 race just a teeny distance away from where I am, and a performance by a band I used to love to bits.

So yeah, back to the race.

Finger boy is now only a point away from clinching this year's Driver's Championship after winning this race, so good for him. I feel like a proud parent. It's like we've watched Vettel go from promising rookie to epic ownage, and I like that he's not a complete douche like Hamilton is.

Speaking of Hamilton's doucheness, he ran into Massa quite early into the race, punctured Massa's rear tyre, and poor Massa had to finish tenth due to really bad luck.

Button finished second, and shaved many seconds off Vettel's lead before finishing 1.7 seconds behind the leader.

Alonso in fourth behind Webber, because despite somewhat good driving, our car just isn't up to par.

Okay, going off now.

I'm sure I have more to say but I really can't at this moment.

Night.

P.S. Geog field trip was interesting. Know a little more about Singapore now, and it doesn't hurt to know things.

P.P.S. The race also managed to cut our field trip short, which made me love F1 a little bit more.

Humility.

Just got back from dinner out with my aunt, uncle and freaking adorable baby cousin, and Stella tweeted me this link, which plays out the comforting sound of rainfall and distant thundering to create the illusion of a reassuring thunderstorm.

I love it when it rains. The sound, the smell, the temperature, the lack of humidity afterwards. So good.

It's been all cold and rainy for the past few days, and I totally appreciate it. It makes up for all the crap we're going through at the moment, what with all the deadlines and tests and quizzes. Oh horribleness.

And went off blogging for a week, because frankly I manage my time really unwisely, so I couldn't bring myself to come here and procrastinate because that would make me feel even worse.

So now it's a Friday again, and even though it's not such a free weekend, it feels good to not have a test/GCT/something due the next day, even though we have a Geog field trip early morning.

Busy busy busy. That's all we've been. But that's life, and we push on.

Hopefully I'll do all right for our Chem test just now.

Had a farewell party for our Year 6s during CCA, because today's their last CCA session, and we've relied so heavily on them. People like Roslyn and Ash have done so much for us, and because of them we've developed as a CCA and they've set the path of leadership for the rest of us. We all want Media to succeed and be regarded with high esteem, and all my CCA life they've been there. And suddenly they're gone and there's a huge gap that needs to be filled. I'm so grateful for their help.

Okay, yeah, race weekend this weekend, and it's a little closer to home this time 'round. Singapore, so close yet so far.

One day, I'm going to go and watch a race live, complete with tickets and seats and all. I don't know how much longer I can last without the experience.

Going off now. Tired beyond belief.

P.S. New seasons of How I Met Your Mother, Glee and The Big Bang Theory have all premiered this week, and I think I might explode of television series goodness.

Acceptance.

Did two things of significance today, and only two, so it wasn't really as productive as I planned it be.

Slept too much in the morning, and ended up not getting anything done because I was sleeping, instead.

But managed to get my lazy ass out of bed and head down to Bugis to meet Aisyah so we could check out the National Library together and see if we could find any useful material for our Malay debate project. Apparently not.

Despite the non-yieldy trip, we gained plenty of new library experience, 'cause neither of us had been there before. If it's possible to fall in love with a building, I have with this one. I love libraries because they're so organised, literate and smell of books, and I love this particular library even more because the building looked so good.

It was ridiculously professional-looking, too. Great place.

The second thing I did of significance today is draw out this print ad for our English advocacy speech project thing in order to support our cause.

And since I'm posting it here, I might as well get out with my cause. I'm advocating a review of the current sexual education syllabus to include LGBT matters. This is because with education gains understanding, and understanding leads to acceptance, and with acceptance, the world becomes a better place. It sucks to have to go through high school as a student with tonnes of work, and it must suck even more to have to go through it with sexual confusion and unsureness of oneself, risking depression and such.

So once a generation has been educated, it paves the way for future generations to have the same level of acceptance. People shouldn't be defined by their sexuality. They can love who they like.

So there you go. Now I'm off to draft my speech.

Adieu.

P.S. I also like libraries because when a library is new, it smells of new building, and when it's settled in, it smells of books, which are two of my favourite smells.

P.P.S. Workload still dwarfs Mt Everest. Oh help me.