Wednesday, February 01, 2012

Insecure.

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Been wanting to post since I got back from school today, because- wait for it- there is now wifi connection in my room.


Oh goodness.

Woke up this morning and switched on my laptop (because I'm such an Internet addict it's what gives me my kick early in the morning. Some people use caffeine, but the Internet is the way to go for me) and suddenly, poof, the prompt appeared asking me to log into school wifi because I didn't turn it off from last night.

So, so happy. How could I not? This means no more sitting in the pantry to type out posts and use the Twitter site amongst other things. This is amazing. I can sit here in the comfort of my own room and like, do things. Feels good.


Had our Math GCT today. Wasn't too shabby, thankfully. It's just going to make us complacent and now we're all doomed for exams because we think everything will be as easy as what they've given us so far. Quite scary. The Math department is probably secretly evil and plotting our downfall as I speak.

Did Tutorial 2, then got released. Went with Aisyah to the Games room (like, again. We seem to be doing this every Wednesday now) and played pool. Really badly (for me, at least. So shameful).

ACE was all about respect, but we didn't really talk much about it and instead finished watching Dead Poets Society and then changed our seating arrangement (because the plan is to do it every month) with that random name picker Mrs Lim showed us (one of the most useful things us Geog students have learnt in two years). I sit in a corner at the back now, where no teacher can see me (which is bad, because then I might really fall asleep now).

Then stayed back for a while to do up our class noticeboard (and now it looks quite awesome). Haven't finished yet, but I bet we're the only class ever to rip up English essay presentation paragraphs and use the scraps in a collage. Yeah go us.

Class pride has always been there, but sometimes I still find myself missing 405 and all our teachers and the old classes we used to take. But oh well, we move on. Hardly spend time with a lot of people anyway, because we split into honours/majors during Math, olympiad/no olympiad during Chem, NS group/non-NS group during PE, and more than a quarter of the class leaves during Bio while a lot of us don't take Mother Tongue lessons anymore. The only classes we actually have as a class are Physics and English.

Went out for lunch at the Subway in WCP (at half past two in the afternoon) with Wai Yin and Nicole. Came back, slept, then had dinner, an amazingly short boarding assembly (only half an hour, which is a record, I swear) and that pretty much summed up my night.

Okay, going off now.

Physio quiz tomorrow.

Night.


P.S. I've only read two books this month. Better than any other school month as of late, but still.

P.P.S. Oh goodness I love Sherlock. The geniuses at BBC need a pat on the back.


Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Yusheng.

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Listening to MCR right now, because that's how I roll with my favourite band of all time.


Was going to post on Sunday, but then there were definitely issues with the lack of wi-fi in my room, and I wasn't really bothered to come out all the way to the pantry to post, so no-go. Nothing much happened, anyway. Went down to play pool around noon-time, then had lunch with KT, Kelvin and Adithya at Thai Express at three in the afternoon. Did a bit of work, then napped a bit, then like, watched two episodes of The Big Bang Theory and an episode of Glee.

TBBT is still as funny as I remember. It's got a consistency as good as How I Met Your Mother's. And I love that Raj kind of started a relationship with his iPhone Siri, which is hilarious. Maybe one day they'll create sentient AI that would be the perfect boyfriend. (If not AI, the perfect boyfriend would be one who would be able to do this with me.)

And Glee was just plain disappointing. Maybe this guy can sum it up for me.

SLI on Monday, so after class we had to head to the hall to watch Student Leaders be Invested. Or something along those lines. Yes, I respect the student leaders in our school, and I strongly encourage the recognition of the SLs' efforts. We will strive to do what we can for our school and the younger kids who'll always see us as their presidents, captains, or chairmen.

Gave a short briefing during our CCA slot after SLI. Feeling pretty chuffed because out of the thirteen newcomers, six voluntarily joined the video side. I am so proud. You know that feeling you get when you just know the rest of the year will be amazing? Yeah, I had that right then. I love Media.


Then had our first cluster birthday celebration of the year. Had an amount of food which was good, and did some talking (I also realise I will never understand girls).


Had two classes today. Math (longest of the week, which was two hours) wasn't bad because time passed quite okay-ly and we ended fifteen minutes early. Finally finished chapter 2. Then English was plain demoralising of my lack of brain function and inferior intellect and inability to form coherent sentences on paper.

Lunched after class, then went to the Games room and like, played pool/watched people play pool for most of my afternoon. Then napped again (I seem to be taking a lot of these, because I sleep late, wake up early, then come back to catch up on lost rest) before watching half an episode of Sherlock. Oh good, good stuff, that. Irene Adler in the series isn't as hot as the one in the movies with Robert Downey Jr (and she didn't have that American-ised accent, either), but she was pretty good as it was.

I don't like that she (SPOILER) dies though, because I like the idea that Sherlock has feelings for someone other than Watson.


Had some yusheng thing afterwards (I'm not Chinese enough to be familiar with this, and it's messy and tasted quite bad) with the other Year 5s during dinner. Messy, messy, messy.


Okay, going off now.


Night.


P.S. The more I watch Martin Freeman in Sherlock, the more I want to see him portray Bilbo. It's going to be so good.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Looking For Alaska.

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Updating my blog link list, because a lot of people have stopped blogging or created new links since I linked them. Tsk, inconsistencies.


Or perhaps it's me. Haven't changed my URL since I started, which was back in November '07. That's crazy, isn't it? I don't see myself blogging ten years into the future, about getting a job or what my kids are like, but I don't see a reason for me to stop, either. Maybe the hype will just gradually die down, and I'll no longer find talking about each and every day useful, either.

But I like it as it is now, because I can't stand when days go by unappreciated and unreflected upon.

So like, woke up quite late today. Past noon. Just kept waking up and then realising my ass was still too heavy to be hauled out of bed.

Hung around the Internet a while afterwards, then started on 'Looking For Alaska' by John Green, because Jon Koo and Leyi told me to read it (so Leyi emailed me the PDF). Honestly, I hadn't finished a book (of significant length) in one sitting in almost a forever. Didn't even get up to pee or anything like that. I just sat there and stared at my laptop screen for four and a half hours. So engrossing.

When I started, I honestly thought Miles Halter was female. I mean, what dude is this chatty from a first person perspective? But then it was so good. Oh yes, so good. If I had read from a physical copy of the book, I'd say it was unputdownable, but I didn't really have to hold anything, so I can't say that. Couldn't stop scrolling and couldn't tear my eyes away from the screen, definitely. It started off fast and ended fast and there was never a boring lull where the author describes some fancy scenery or many feelings in a terribly longwinded and repetitive manner. Every part keeps you wanting more.

And it was such a sad book, too. I like these books because they make you think. And 'Looking For Alaska' made me think. About finding my "Great Perhaps", too. Or am I already there? On my way to a less boring life? It feels so real, because I left home for school too. No smoking or alcohol though, and without reckless prank-pulling, but daring enough for me.

It was also about forgiving and forgetting and what happens to memories when people die and how to deal with feeling them slip away. Deep. So deep. And good. So good.

And that's pretty much all I did today. Read a book online, blog, look up random things, and avoid schoolwork.

Go me.

Good night.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Questions again.

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Continuing random question answering.


91-Say 2 facts about your favorite things:
No.

106-Would you ever smile at a stranger?
Why not? I smile at strangers all the time. They think I'm creepy.

107-Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
Does not matter.

108-Who is someone you never tire of?
Aragorn son of Arathorn.

109-Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
Myself.

110-Who is your most loyal friend?
Myself.

111-Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
No. Nobody can talk about everything.

112-If your best friend died, what would you do?
Be sad.

113-Something you’ve lied about.
My whole life is a lie.

114-Have you ever felt replaced?
No.

115-Say 5 facts about your bestfriend(s):
No.

116-The last person you hugged?'
My parents.

117-Story of your first kiss?
When I was born and my mum thought I was the loveliest baby.

118-Do you like kissing in public?
What?

119-Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
My parents? My grandmother?

120-You have a preference for boys or girls?
No. The person you are inside can hardly be decided solely by gender.

121-Is the male or female body closest to perfection?
Also, not decided by gender.

127-What is the first thing you noticed in someone?
Hair. Also the sound of their voice.

128-Are looks important in a relationship?
Yes. Oh definitely. Of course. How not.

129-What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
Depends.

130-What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
Does not matter. Unless you're Doug Hutchison and Courtney "My-Boobs-Are-Rill" Stodden.

131-Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
No, we would date in a nice place in the real world, thank you very much.

Hmm why are so many questions missing?

164-Do you ever want to get married?
Yes.

165-Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
No.

167-Do you get jealous easily?
No.

168-The last time you felt jealous, and why?
No.

169-What is your definition of cheating?
When you do something you're not supposed to do that makes life easier but is totally against protocol and makes others unhappy.

170-Have you ever been cheated on?
No.

171-Do you forgive betrayal?
When the time comes when someone betrays me, I hope so. Or maybe not. That would be so much cooler, actually. I'd like, turn into someone like Ezio Auditore and carry out vengeance in style (and an awesome hoodie).

172-Have you ever cheated on someone?
No.

173-Why did your last relationship fail?
Because it didn't exist.

174-Things you want to say to an ex:
Nothing.

175-A description of the person you dislike the most:
Nobody.

176-If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
No. I would seek a therapist because I would be seeing things.

177-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
None.

178-How long was your longest relationship?
Never.

180-Share a relationship story:
Current is inversely proportional to resistance.

181-How often do you listen to music?
Many many.

182-What kind of music you like?
Good music. Duhh.

183-Do you like to dance?
No.

185-Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Every song reminds me of everything.

186-Share a song that takes you to a certain memory in the past:
The Pokémon first season introduction theme reminds me of Pokémon.

187-A song that’s been stuck in your head:
A bit of James Morrison lately.

188-Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play:
Speed of Sound - Coldplay
New Born - Muse
I Will Follow You Into The Dark - Death Cab for Cutie (but sung by Kurt Schneider in this version)
Smooth - Santana featuring Rob Thomas
Galvanize - Chemical Brothers
In The City - Eagles
Angels - Robbie Williams
Moonlight Sonata - Beethoven (but not played by him, obviously)
Buck Rogers - Feeder
A Loaded Smile - Adam Lambert
Untitled - Simple Plan

189-A book you want to read/have recently read:
Recently read 'Looking For Alaska' by John Green.

190-Describe your dream library:
Cosy, but with wall-to-wall shelves. Windows to let plenty of light in, but not so that it damages the books. Lamps and comfy armchairs and end tables here and there, and a few potted plants. The smell of book and new building. Digitalised catalogue, but with handwritten physical copy as well. And of course, many books.

191-Last movie you just watched:
My Girl.

192-Do you like watching what type of movies?
Question phrasing wrong. I enjoy anything that doesn't suck and has quality actors.

193-You’re in a tattoo parlor about to get inked. What are you getting done?
A tattoo of an eye on my left ankle.

194-What’s something you can see yourself going to jail for?
Being offensive.

195-If you could be any character, from any literary work, who would you choose to be?
Arwen. Because she marries Aragorn and she's an elven princess. And she marries Aragorn.

196-You’re given $10,000…under one condition: you cannot keep the money for yourself. Who would you give it to?
People who supply food and clothes and aid, and then give those things to people who need them.

197-If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
Nothing.

198-If you were an element on the Periodic Table, which would you be and why?
An undiscovered one.

199-If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
None, goodness me.

200-You’re an Action Movie Hero. What’s your weapon of choice and the line you scream when defeating your arch enemy?
Bow and arrow (short swords or Wolverine-style claws if not) and I'll scream, "Come get me, b*tches."

201-If you could design an amusement park ride, what would it be like?
The most awesome ever. Will provide details when I turn multi-millionaire and actually get to build one for the masses.

202-What is the first curse word that comes to mind?


203-What the last party you went to was… and when the next will be…
Last party? Next? No idea.

204-Halloween costume idea?
Average person. Man those things scare me.

205-How you’d spend ten thousand bucks?
Refer to question 196.

206-Press ctrl+v and post:


207-Would you rather be stranded on a desert island with someone you love for ten years or someone you hate for a month? Explain why.
Someone I hate. Because then I won't feel so lonely when we part.

208-5 things within touching distance:
Laptop phone biscuits wallet CCA name list of new recruits.

209-A drunken story:
Aijdenfaflshj clajf[uanrfu clawfn[aufnsc uh5fuam csdop acnjkdnh xna,bnc,mnb eudajn cannot type while drunk asduhajneccn

210-What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Work.

211-Currently wanting to see anyone?
Not really.

212-Why you follow me?
I don't.

213-If you met me what would you do?
I wouldn't know you.

214-Leave me a ridiculous question:
No.

215-Leave me a cute message:
Who are you?

Pool.

0 comments Yours insincerely, The Psychotic Elven Princess

It seems like I'm going to start every single post by saying "In the pantry right now", so just assume for the duration of the school term that I have to step outside every time I need to post anything or use the real Twitter website or check up on QC updates.


Wednesday, had only an hour of class, which was Math. Then spent the three hours of break we had playing pool in the Games room and The Village in the TV room before going back to school for ACE. Continued watching 'Dead Poets Society', which is honestly astoundingly good, and I now understand the obsession some people have with it. I don't think it really teaches us anything about integrity, but we all enjoy a good movie. Especially when familiar actors are in it.

Thursday, had three Sciences back-to-back followed by PE. Chem was all right. Finished off Assignment 1 in class with the help of Jia Hong, while Mrs Chong talked about alkenes and stuff. Animal Physio was just, well, just. No new lecture notes, but sort of spent two hours recapping the previous lecture. I do understand, but sometimes I find myself a bit perplexed and falling asleep. It's funny how I feel less sleepy during Physics. It's perhaps 90% common sense right now, and I think it's quite fun (what has become of me). Mm circuits.

Paced with Aisyah during PE. Clocked 13:56 for five rounds, which is completely atrocious compared to everyone else (here which refers to the horribly fit girls in our PE group). Need to go running more often, yes. So unfit it's disgusting. I don't know how I've let myself go like this. Reading these posts and remembering the old training days, where I struggled to reach over 50 kg (here). Goodness me.


Almost finished watching 'Dead Poets Society' today during mentoring, but got cut off because Ms Dass wanted to carry on with our English lesson (which I will, again, stress that I will fail this module). Brain froze so badly.

Half an hour break, then had Math (which we now shall start referring to as "SPM", or "Stupid People Math", because we're not Honours students). Thankfully understood things. I'm so grateful for the slower pace, because it gives my poor intellectually impaired brain time to think and absorb information.

Class ended after Math, so went with Aisyah to the Games room to play some pool. We seem to play pool a lot nowadays (well we used to, but ever since the other Year 5s moved in, we've been playing a lot more). Yeah, I quite enjoy pool sessions, because you can simply pop in and join a game, and somehow there are always people there to play with.

CCA was awesome, as usual. Met up with Pin and Jia Min beforehand to discuss things, then went to the hall to fetch new juniors. Eight Year 1s this year, which means double last year's number. So, so elated. We were all like high-fiving each other in the hall, and now everyone knows we are the weirdest CCA.

Didn't have food today because Wei Ren was at SLI rehearsals (along with a few others, and the Year 4s who had SMP), so broke some ice with whacko and charades and basic introductions. Going to hold a briefing on Monday though.

Went out for Rocky's afterwards with Wee Thean, Kelvin, Adithya, KT, Wai Yin and Woan Chyi. Mm food.

Came back and then played even more pool. Goodness, need to develop better skills. I'm sick of depending on luck.

All right, so that's it for the endeavours of the week.

Night.



Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Questions.

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Copied this off Pin's blog to make up for all the non-posts I've made so far this year.


1-How are you?
Content.

2-Post a picture of yourself.
No.

3-Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Yes, but only that I was Arwen because she gets Aragorn.

4-What is your entire name?
Ya Wen Lim. No secrets there.

5-How old are you?
Yeah.

6-Age you get mistaken for:
Okay.

7-Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality:
Scorpio, and does not apply. I am who I am. The stars cannot dictate that.

8-What did you do on your last birthday?
Stayed in my room and worked on that Deeparaya vid, and then went out for karaoke with the Bruneians.

9-What is one thing you would like to accomplish before your next birthday?
Maintain my lovely, youthful demeanour.

10-What is your hair color?
Asian dark brown.

11-Have you ever dyed your hair?
No.

12-What is your eye color?
Once again, Asian dark brown.

13-If you could change your eye color, would you?
Yes.

14-Do you wear contacts/glasses?
Glasses. They make me look smarter than I actually am.

18-Do you have any tattoos?
In the future.

19-Do you have any piercings?
My ear-pierced days ended with an infection that set in last June. I miss them sometimes. I see people with cartilage piercings and I'm like, heck, I could've had three but now I have none. That's sad. Maybe one day I'll go and get my ear re-pierced, but that day won't come soon because I still remember the pain and the shame of failure.

20-Left or right handed?
Right.

21-What’s your sexual orientation?
Men.

22-Do you drink?
As the wise saying goes, "One who does not drink stays dehydrated."

23-Do you smoke?
No, but I guess if you set me on fire I would.

24-Do you have any pets?
Pet peeves.

25-Where do you work?
Everywhere.

26-Something you are working on right now:
Things.

27-Do you have any “rules” about food?
Save the good stuff for last.

28-Where are you from?
Where is everybody from? Why are we here?

29-What would you say is your best quality?
My self-deprecatory humour.

30-What do you think you’re really good at?
Nothing. Either that, or bumping into things unnecessarily.

31-What do you think you’re really bad at?
Feelings. People. Life.

33-Are you a bad person?
I try.

34-Are you nice to everyone?
Too nice. People tell me to stop being so nice.

36-Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?
No rumours are nasty because they're like funny little stories people are stupid enough to believe.

37-What is your ideal bed? Why?
Mine. Because I grew up with the ideal.

38-Did you wake up cranky?
Never.

39-Do you sleep with a stuffed toy?
Yes.

40-What do you think about the most?
Death, dying, what work I need completing.

42-What you want to be when you “get older”?
Older. See? Accomplished.

43-What are your career goals?
To never regret my career path.

44-What is your ideal career?
Sometimes I dream of being an accomplished movie director; up there with all the stars and getting to order them around in order to create my art. Sometimes I look at buildings and wish I could be an architect because I find design and construction undervalued although it's really very brilliant. Sometimes I want to be a writer or musician or that random person who wins the lottery and becomes a millionaire. It changes from time to time.

45-Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
Of course not.

46-Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
Yes. I'm like a little video camera that records everything for playback later in case I've missed something.

47-Have you ever had an imaginary friend?
Hah.

48-Say 10 facts about your room:
Shared. With. Grandmother. And. I. Love. Every. Inch. Of. It.

49-Do you have any phobias?
Why would I tell you?

50-Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist?
I wish.

51-Are you allergic to anything? If so, what?
Prawns and pressure.

52-Ever broken any bones?
No.

53-Ever come close to death?
I'm still alive, so no.

60-Do you have a facebook? If so, would you add the person who sent you this?
No, Mark Zuckerberg owns Facebook, not me.

61-Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
I told you, not mine.

62-Describe yourself in one word/sentence:
I think, therefore I am.

63-A quote you try to live by:
"Arr."

64-A famous person you’ve been compared to:
Myself. Since everyone I know knows me, I must be incredibly famous.

65-Weird things you do when you’re alone:
I tell myself things, and sing songs.

66-Something you do without realizing:
Nothing.

68-Someone you’d like to be for a day and why:
Some bank robber, or something. Then I could commit some crime and risk getting arrested, but by the next day I wouldn't be the poor bugger anymore. Sounds good.

69-Leave me a compliment:
Who?

70-What is your favorite thing to do?
Be me.

71-What’s your favorite color?
What are colours.

73-What’s your favorite movie?
Movies, you mean. The Lord of the Rings trilogy, and then hopefully The Hobbit, too.

74-What are your favorite books?
Hah. Hah. Hah. I can't name them because I wouldn't be doing them justice.

75-What is your favorite quote and why?
http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/36746.Lemony_Snicket

76-What is your favorite word?


77-What is your least favorite word?
Nothing comes to mind at the moment.

78-What is your favorite type of food?
Non-hostel and edible.

79-You favorite ice cream?
It's not so much the taste, or flavour, or texture, but the atmosphere. There was this time we went to this place in Holland and bought the best ice cream at this little shop and sat outside in the cold summer sun munching on the crispy, flavourful cone and it was one of the best moments I've ever had in my life.

80-What’s your favorite animal?
As books, I won't do them justice either.

81-Dogs or cats?
Neither, really. I'd keep a cat, but dogs are ridiculously loveable.

82-Describe your favourite texture:
The smooth, cold side of a pillow. And something else I can't quite recall at the moment.

83-What is your favorite flower?
None.

84-What’s your favourite scent? And on the opposite sex?
I love the smell of freshly baked bread. On the opposite sex? Hard to describe.

85-What is your favorite season?
Winter.

86-What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die?
It doesn't matter where you go, it's who you go with. I was in Tokyo alone 'cause my dad had work, and the sites were great and all, but it wasn't the amazing experience I had hoped to have, because it wasn't shared.

87-What are four things you can’t live without and why?
My functional body, and my consciousness, and people to talk to, and the Internet.

88-Which mythological creature are you most like? Why?
None. I am a mythological creature.

89-What’s your favorite television show?
That old BBC production of Pride and Prejudice, I think.

90-Favorite place to shop at?
None. I am no shopper.


Okay, will continue next time.

Adieu.

The Devil's Arithmetic.

0 comments Yours insincerely, The Psychotic Elven Princess

Ten minutes before lights out, and I'm still in the pantry tapping on my newfound love, 'Pantry wi-fi'. I love pantry wi-fi.


Arrived around two hours ago, managed to get a taxi and stuff and make it back in time to iron my uniform for tomorrow and unpack and stuff.

Haven't posted in such a while because I've been quite occupied with not doing anything except reading Ultimate Spiderman and watching trailers of movies I would love to watch and watching Sherlock and other television shows that are probably a complete waste of my time.

Chinese New Year this year has been amazing, because I didn't fall miserably sick (unlike last year) and because there were hardly any awkward questions asked this year. Wish I could've had a chance to write about it in greater detail, but I didn't have time to write about my past week as each day passed, so details are a bit blur.

Flight back on Friday after school CNY celebrations, which meant only an hour and a half of English (the module which I'm going to be failing this year) that day followed by celebrations and slacking and stuff.

Reached home late, slept, woke up, went on errands (collecting CNY cakes and biscuits and then delivering them as gifts to relatives and things like that), came back, watched an episode of Sherlock with my mum and brother, slept, woke up, went on more errands, had awesome CNY eve dinner (really, really awesome because my grandmother is an amazing cook), slept, and then open house-d and CNY commenced for real.

I love CNY because it gives us all a reason to come together and eat and have fun and visit each other and tell jokes and laugh loudly without a care in the world. Beautiful concept.

And I did not go hungry at all.


Also managed to cram in some reading. 'The Devil's Arithmetic' by Jane Yolen. Honestly really moving. You read about all these things that happened during the wars (and I've read only a handful of these books and seen a handful of these movies) but you'll never be able to imagine the sheer horror of having to live in those times. So what do we do? Do we remember and admire the painful times the older generations have had to endure, or do we cast aside and forget all the terribleness? I think it's better to keep in mind horrors of the past, because things that happen deserve to be remembered, because they cannot afford to happen again.


Okay, long post, need to shower now.

Night.


P.S. Brunei's population is so small, almost everybody knows everybody else second degree. It's crazy.



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